As I have mentioned so many times before, I have problems with my sleep schedule or the problem is rather the total lack of a sleep schedule. This seems to be a very common problem. Most people on Twitter seem to have problematic sleep patterns for one reason or another. I’ve always been a evening or night person, rather stayed up late than get up early. I think I managed my taxi schedule the weeks I began work at five am because getting up at four am is too early for the mind or the body to even realize what is happening, they just do what they need to do and I wake up after driving the fifteen minutes it takes from my home to the taxi garage. Beginning work at seven am is more difficult, mind and body have very many objections at that time of the morning.
I’ve always been a night person. I spent some time in Toronto and realized that time zone worked perfectly for me. Some researchers say we have an inner clock that doesn’t always agree with the regular clock, but I guess it can be viewed as a time zone thing. It’s not me that’s wrong it’s Central European Time that’s wrong. I need Eastern Standard Time. Just move. If it only was that easy. Always been a night person, starts playing video games on an American server with people from EST. Soon realizing most of my friends live in EST. How could I stay on a schedule that would work in Sweden? Impossible. But necessary. I don’t really play much video games at the moment and most of my friends are quite busy and/or respect my time zone, telling me to go to bed. Still it’s difficult.
Last night I found myself giving advice about sleep problems. The irony, I know. I realized that myself. I’m not the right person to give advice about sleeping. But then I remembered reading all those quotes saying that we often give the advice we need to follow ourselves. Often we don’t even realize that ourselves, but for other people it can be obvious that we are not following our own advice. So I began to wonder if that could be used as a method of finding the answers about how to solve our own, or my own, problems. As a method of silencing the mind and letting the soul tell me what it need to heal. What if I write down my problems and then look at them as if they weren’t my own, but somebody else's and I am supposed to give that person advice on how to solve these problems. Theoretically it could work, right?
It was so easy when it was someone else who’s up all night and sleep all day. First I asked three questions about the reason why this was happening. Are you not tired? Obviously not if you sleep all day. Are you overthinking? That would probably lead to a new line of questioning and a separate inquiry. Are you doing something that makes you lose track of time and/or makes you more awake and alert, for example playing video games? Fair question to ask a gamer, right? It’s just that they do not like it when you tell them that maybe they shouldn’t. I know how dangerous video games can be though. You’re just going to finish this part… and maybe that one… and before you know it it’s morning and the sun’s up.
So… why didn’t I sleep at all last night? I had been sleeping all day and apparently one sleeping pill isn’t enough. I was also watching Wire in the Blood and fiddling with other stuff at the same time. Not video games, but still the same idea. I’ll just finish this, but it takes longer than anticipated and soon I’ve watched three episodes and it’s morning. I’ve been awake for about twenty three hours right now, when I’m writing this at half past two in the afternoon. So I haven’t slept all day. I went out for a walk instead. Or rather a drive and a walk. Wasn’t raining when I was out, but it had been most of the night. Smelled very nice out in the “foresty”/woods area. I have fallen asleep to Wire in the Blood before, I know most episodes by heart anyway. But I guess I can’t do other things at the same time, I blame the things from keeping me up. Maybe two pills would work better than one, probably, right? Did I solve my friend’s problem? No, it turned out to be love related, so there’s not much to do about that. You will stay up all night just for a chance of a short moment with that special person. I’ve done it myself, I can’t tell anyone else that they shouldn’t do that when I definitely know that’s an advice I never would follow myself.
Maybe this is nothing new to you. Maybe this is how you always deal with your problem. Maybe I should have thought of it before. I don’t know. All I know is that I finally figured it out and I’m going to try it on other problems as well to see if it works at all. Maybe it does. I’ve heard somewhere that the brain, the subconscious doesn’t care who you’re talking to, it takes everything personally. When you give the advice you need yourself, the subconscious apparently listens to that advice too. If we want to make believe it’s advice for someone else or if we just analyze our problems from a different perspective it should have the same effect, right?
Short interruption to mention an awesome sunset outside my window right now. The sky is all pink and orange, really beautiful. And the time is: 2:56 pm. perfect time for a sunset, right? Told you in previous posts it gets dark early.
For some reason though, it seems easier to see what other people are doing wrong that to see where we go wrong ourselves. I guess we are so easily fooled we believe our own excuses. Anyway… I’ve reached my magic number and that sunset is so distracting.
Thank you!!! Remember to watch your awesome sunset and smile!!!
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