I’m so sorry I didn’t manage to write anything yesterday. I overslept. Big time. As usual, lately, I fell asleep in the middle of the day, but I didn’t wake up after a couple of hours. I slept until two am. Technically it was still yesterday in some parts of the world, but I was too tired to write. The only reason I didn’t fall asleep again was that I was very hungry. Sleeping past dinner time can do that. I haven’t slept anything since then and it’s about eight in the evening now, so hopefully I will be able to sleep tonight.
One good thing that came out of my whole day of sleep is that I wasn’t terribly tired today when the stores opened. The sad thing is that when I was getting ready to go I got my first really big panic attack in a long time. I had to take medication and postpone going out. Almost three hours later I managed to go though. I went to one of my favorite places and got some nice photos. Then I did some shopping, lost some of my shopping somewhere between the check out and my car. Typical. I didn’t notice until I got home. Unfortunately I didn’t go straight home so there was no point going back. Went to another favorite place, by the ocean, where the ferry to Vaasa, Finland was waiting in port. It was very windy, very cold, but I got some nice photos there too. Then I did some more shopping, more food, stocking up for a long time again.
I did also visit the pharmacy. Unfortunately I had no prescription for sleeping pills on my list. I got painkillers and pills for my stomach. So many of the pills I take are bad for the stomach, but I have to take them. The diabetes pills are the worst. Before i payed the pharmacy guy asked if there was anything else I needed or if I had any questions. I said that since the thing I really needed, the reason I was there, wasn’t on my list so no there was nothing else. He asked what it was and offered to sell me a bottle anyway if I talked to my doctor to get a new prescription. I said that would be great since I can’t sleep without them. He’s like that, always helping a little bit extra. Maybe because I have been a customer there for so long I have practically lived in the pharmacy at times. He could see that I had had the pills before but the old prescription had just past the last date. It’s only valid for a year. And that was yesterday. When I was at home sleeping. Luckily they can revive it a few days after the expiration day. Which means, I have sleeping pills again. There’s some hope that I will be able to sleep again. That would be amazing. Sleep at night. Food in the freezer. Taking pictures in the terribly cold hours of the day. The days are getting longer. It’s daylight at two in the afternoon again. I can take pictures again.
After the pharmacy the sun was beginning to set. I drove out to the ocean again, but a different place that’s further out. It’s the end of the road, there’s nothing but water, or no it’s obviously ice as far as you can see. I have photographed there only twice before. Once in the spring, once in October or November. It was so beautiful. The sun was bright orange and just a bit over the horizon. The picture was really awesome. That is the one I chose to upload to Instagram.
It’s been a rather good day, but I am having real problems with my writing. I don’t know what to write.
I was a little bit surprised that I had a panic attack, but I guess I’ve been postponing this trip for so long my brain figured that it must be something dangerous. Add to that the fact that didn’t really want to go today either. I mean, if I am completely honest, if I really wanted to go I wouldn’t care how tired I was. Being tired is just an excuse not to go. Even if I was really, really tired. It wouldn’t be the first time I was driving tired. Besides, when it’s cold out that tends to make you wake up. But basically it’s all just about priorities and just didn’t prioritize going to the pharmacy or the store, or even to take pictures. I prioritized staying at home, watching NCIS LA. I’ve almost caught up on that show too, but I heard that The Walking Dead are back tonight, so there’s always something to watch. Need to re-watch the new Bond movie as well as Star Wars VII. And I haven’t seen the new Hunger Games yet. Star wars is a great series of movies to sleep to so that’s a bonus. Kind of joking, but I watched all of the old episodes a while back and I always fell asleep. I had to start over with each film two or three times. And I love Star Wars, so it’s not that either. I am weird. That’s probably it.
I still have some ways left to go before I am done for today. Even though I have learnt roughly how much I have to write before it’s one thousand words I still use the word counter. Which means that I can’t write my posts on my blog platform. I use Google docs to write, copy and paste. Most of the time I have music in the background. Lately I have started all my writing sessions with Alphaville’s Red Rose, an extended version. We’re kind of an 80s household. My roommate, whenever he stays with me, he is also very into 80s music. 80s bands. Classic rock, though that’s not exactly Alphaville though. But Red Rose is kind of upbeat, happy, makes me want to dance, wakes me up.
Anyway, even if I had to drag the words out of my mind today, I have passed the magic number.
Thank you! Take care!!
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