I am late again. It seems impossible to get out of bed and get started with what I need to do. I wake up early, maybe not early enough for sunrise pictures, but I could still have got some frosty pics. If I hadn’t gone back to sleep. I could at least have had a nice walk in the sunshine, if I had gone out when I woke up next time. But… I didn’t go out until it was dark, really dark. Still got some really nice photos though, but I am late. Again. My routines are falling apart. I need to get back on track. I could have written this before I want out, but I didn’t. Before I had that involuntary break I wrote my thousand words in the morning. How did I manage that? I know I did definitely not go to sleep earlier than I do now. Maybe I just didn’t sleep. Maybe I wrote it and slept after. I can’t remember. It all seems so long ago. So much has happened since then.
So much has changed. I didn’t go out for walks or pictures every day back then. I hardly ever used my Instagram account. I do every day now and it’s so much fun. I have even started to post some of my pictures on Twitter. Maybe I can call myself photographer one day. Can you be a photographer if you only use your phone and tablet to take pictures? Is it the camera or the person that takes the picture? Better camera equals better pictures, but if you can’t take good pictures with a cell phone can you really with an expensive camera? Imagine if you take really good pictures using your Samsungs what they could be if you had a real camera. There’s a different with a good quality picture, lots of pixels and all that, and a great shot. You can still learn how to be a good photographer, to know what to photograph, how to use the light and all that with a phone. It’s maybe even more important when all you have is a phone.
As you might have guessed I have been thinking about the etiquettes we give ourselves and each other.The groups we belong to. How we define ourselves. Your family, relatives, school yo go to, town you live in, region, county, state, country. Some are regulated by social and legal rules to be officially valid like your family. You have to be born or adopted, or married into a family. You can’t just say you’re a Trump and you’ll get to inherit all that money. I wish. Or being Swedish. I was born here, I’m a citizen, my passport says that I’m Swedish. And even though I technically can move to UK if I want to I won’t exactly be British because of that. I have the right to live and work there because of the EU-rules, but I would still officially be Swedish. But then there’s all those other categories that don’t have any formal, legal regulation defining what they are. They are defined in a completely different way.
What defines a writer, for instance? Do you have to be published? That would mean you’re not a writer while you’re trying to get a contract, so that can’t be it. Do you have to be really talented, but who decides that? I have recently started to call myself a writer and the turning point for me wasn’t realizing that I have always been writing or that it’s how I best can express myself. It was when I realized how much I need to write. How much better it makes me feel when I do and how I miss it when I don’t. I have been complaining about how I am not good enough and why would anyone want to read what I write. Someone said that’s what it’s like to be a writer. Never good enough, what will people think, would anyone read it, and then the haters…. Writers live in that pain and that’s why they - we - write. We have to and we have to share even if that is frightening. So I do fit the description. The need is still greater than the fear.
So. I’m a writer, but am I a blogger? What defines a blogger? You write a blog. Is that all? Do I think that’s enough? Are you a blogger or do you just have a blog? Well, I write every day, I publish every day, I try to think about an audience when I write, I try to be interesting even though it may not always show. Again, is it skill or effort that defines you? Do I have to make money from my blog or is it enough to have a couple of readers? Do you need readers to be a blogger or is it the thought that counts? You have to start somewhere and I did that a long time ago. I’ve had many blogs, one that was main and some experimental. The main was also experimental. Right now, writing this I do feel a have some idea of what I am doing, trying to do. I am still working on getting better, trying to improve, that is my challenge. Am I a blogger though? Maybe, but maybe I need a little more time before I can feel comfortable labeling me as a blogger.
Calling myself a photographer is, as I’ve mentioned not something I’m ready for yet. Not even if I chose to say amateur photographer. I definitely isn’t a professional, I’d say you need to get payed before you should call yourself a pro. Doesn’t mean you’re not as good as… just you know. For me professional means that’s a way you earn your money. THere are some other categories I have been thinking about and also discussed with people, but as I am coming up on my magic number soon I think I will have to come back to them at a later date.
If you made it this far you’re in the category of readers, or viewers, maybe you’re one of my friends. If you made it this far you are if you ask me…
Thank you, have a nice day!!!
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