Today everything feels off

You know those days when everything feels off? I’m having one of those today. I woke up just before noon feeling terribly tired. Did not want to wake up, but I still did. Got to check on the social media, you know. Twitter, or maybe Instagram. Someone might have messaged me. Someone, anyone. Or posted pictures I must like, or there could be tweets to favorite and retweet. I have such great responsibilities, so much work. Ehum, no. I don’t.

Those off days are perfect for procrastination. Just go to your social media apps and, if no one has been looking for you, you just start looking for new things. New people to follow or like or retweet. Or old people. Old friends you don’t really talk to anymore but you still keep track of what they are up to. Pro tip though, when it comes to old boyfriends or girlfriends it is really better not to. Trust me. It is. You don’t really want to know. Trust me. You don’t.

It is as if nothing really works, or nothing really gets started. Nothing is flowing. There no flow to go with. Can’t just let it flow when nothing really is flowing. Everything need to be forced. You have to make yourself get up and go to the bathroom. You’re really hungry but that super nice looking piece of freshly made breakfast bread you’re being teased with on Instagram just isn’t present in your kitchen. It’s on the other side of the world, literally the other side. So you’re still hungry, but it’s such a big effort to go down to the kitchen and fix breakfast. Or lunch, it’s noon. Or breakfast, you just got up.

Some days it just doesn’t seem to matter if the things you have planned to do during the day are super important and must be done. That day. Or if it is something you have really been looking forward to. Like having to go to the bank, which I absolutely had to do today. Or a trip to town with opportunities for a different type of pictures. Nature is great, but it’s always nice with a change of environment. But none of that seemed really that important nor especially fun. And the bank closes at three pm. Why do they still do that? So old school. Seriously banks. Why? Internet banks??? Oh…

The thing I need to log in is broken and the bank will not give me anew one. I have to buy it.

To be completely honest with you I can’t really remember the drive into town. I know I went because I did take some pictures, though not very many. I did not feel any inspiration at all. After dealing with the bank I just went back to my car. I did make another stop for pictures near the railway station. Or is it railroad? Hm… I don’t know and I am not really interested enough to look it up the way I normally would have. I am terribly sorry about that, but I think you know what I mean anyway, right?

I have been extremely helpful today though. I let this super cute guy pass while I was holding up traffic at a busy intersection. He had the cutest smile… … … … … Ehum, well… Moving on. I helped this couple find the square in town they were looking for, I was walking in that direction anyway. Then I helped this group of people find the store they were looking for, we were standing right in front of it. I like helping people. I even had a little bit of cash to give the begging lady outside the store where I get my ffor and diet coke from (I’m a diabetic so I can’t have regular). It wasn’t much, but I don’t really have that much anyway. I would like to help more and if I ever get more money I will make sure to help. More. I really like to help people. And that was a really nice smile… … … …

Not even thing you normally would find fun or stimulating seems the least bit fun or interesting. Those days when you’re off. It was really difficult to find anything to take pictures of. And when I finally came home, not feeling like stopping anywhere along the way to look for photo opportunities I didn’t really feel like posting anything on Instagram. That was when I started fell a little bit worried. I can’t wait to get home and share stuff on Instagram. In the end I still did though, but it was really scary for a while. It felt as if all these routines I’m trying to create, that I love and that I know are good for me. It felt as if they didn’t matter at all. As if I didn’t care. Maybe it’s that face when the novelty has worn off and I’ve been there, done that too much. Maybe I am really getting that cold, sniffly, coughing problem. Maybe it’s just that this day really has been off.

He was very cute though… … … …

Tired, want to sleep for a week, can’t be bothered getting something to eat. But I did sleep and if I count the hours from around four am ish to just before noon, it’s not too bad. I don’t really feel any symptoms of a cold right now. I’m not really hungry. And that cute guy had a very nice smile. I should really not be feeling this off.

I know, it’s Monday, but every day of the week is pretty much the same for me. Tomorrow I will go and see my doctor though. I’ll get the results from the blood tests from last Friday. Let’s hope it’s not too bad. At least he’d be happy I got out for a walk every day. Anything to keep the doctor happy.

I hope your day has been better than mine. I think I’ll take a nap now. Take care!!!