Having a bad day...

Today has not been a good day. Today has been a bad day. And I do not feel like writing anything about it. Why has it not been a good day? Why has it been a bad day? Why do I not feel like writing about it?

Some days are just wrong. Something is off about them already when you wake up. Some day you just want to go on sleeping until it’s over. Some days you probably should just go on sleeping.

Didn’t sleep very well last night. That’s three nights in a row now that I haven’t been sleeping well. That alone is a very bad start for a new day. But eventually, in the early afternoon as usual I thought I’d still give it a chance. A look out the window didn’t exactly make me feel better, happier or more interested in getting up. No sunshine. No sun. No sky. Dark clouds as far as I could see. And the thermometer wasn’t too inspiring either. It’s really getting cold out. Staying under the covers in my warm bed felt a lot more appealing than getting up. But I had nothing to drink and tap water is not an option, that’s a last resort. If I’m dying of thirst and there’s no other way, that’s when I drink water. Don’t get me wrong, it’s perfectly drinkable, doesn’t taste bad or anything like that. I just don’t drink it.

Reluctantly leaving my warm sleeping place I realised the coldness of the season could maybe not be so bad if I found some warmer clothes. After a quick dive into the closet I came out a new person. Feeling slightly better I found my way to the store, but of course they had no diet coke, only coca cola zero, which isn’t the same at all. This day was really trying my patience. Seriously. No diet coke. I know, don’t say it. Everybody does. Don’t drink that stuff, it’s better with real sugar than fake. And all that. Except I have diabetes, so real sugar isn’t better at all. That’s why I can’t drink “real” coca cola. I can’t.

Cold day, no sunshine, still nothing to drink and no idea where to go for my daily walk and photography session. Trying to get the driving around down to a minimum is really not making it easy. Having no money can really be annoying when it comes to the things I want to do. I am still not strong enough to walk from my house to interesting places so I need my car and my car need fuel and that is expensive as fudge.

I got some coke at the gas station, got some gas at a different station and finally chose to drive towards the golf course. It’s pretty nice out there and it’s been a long time since I’ve been there. To get there you pass a small water stream, there’s really water all over around here. River delta, ocean, bays and tiny lakes, puddles. Once upon a time, like a hundred years ago or so the ocean reached a lot further in and a lot of the land I drive around on is actually part of what was bottom of the ocean back then. And the water has remained in the parts that still are deep enough to contain it. So there’s a lot of water.

Water is always nice for pictures and there’s a minimal sandy beachy area that I thought I could explore. I haven’t really been there before. There’s better areas to go if you want a real beach. There’s plenty on my side of the river that are bigger and better. The sun did it’s best to come out, but it was apparent that wouldn’t really be happening today. Still, it was nice to see that it cared enough to give it a try even when the clouds basically had everything covered already.

I walked along the water and took some pictures. The “beach” is really small and the sand terrible, but someone had bothered putting up a building for people to change in. They should have put that money towards making the “beach” better in my opinion, but I’m sure no one cares what I think. As usual there was a place to make a fire and some benches. And I really needed those benches today. While I was out there I really began to feel lousy. It wasn’t just that my feet still hurt from my excessive walking. In shoes not exactly made for walking, I might add. Though I have a pair made especially for that purpose that I probably ought to be using instead. My back was also really hurting today. On top of everything my head started to give up on me. Hurting, feeling stuffed with cotton, dizzie, not really up for being up. Felt more like, I need to lie down.

On my way back to my car this day proved to me that it just wasn’t on my side. I missed a great picture of ducks swimming in the water near the spot where I had parked my car. It would have been awesome. And then as i got into my my car I missed a perfect shot of two ducks flying straight at me. If this day had wanted to, it couldn’t have made it more clear. You should just have stayed in bed. There’s nothing out here for you today.

When I finally came home I could barely make my way up the stairs and back in bed, My head was really hurting. I felt really weak as if I was going to fall down any second. My back was hurting. I didn’t really have any good pictures to post. No one had messaged me. And as I crawled into bed, hiding under my cover I was shaking, feeling so cold. Window closed, two blankets, but I was freezing.  The first episode of season 11 of Supernatural was magic, but as soon as that was over I just had to sleep. I will go back to sleeping now. Tomorrow I will have to go take tests at the medic center early in the morning. No more eating or drinking for me. It’s going to be a bad night.

I hope you’re having a better day than me, good night.