Procrastinating all over the place

I have had a day off today. Sort of. I had about three hours of sleep, because I had an appointment to keep this morning. I almost called it off, but decided it was better to get it over with. It was raining again, so it would have been so great to just go back to sleep again. My intentions were to sleep after the appointment, but that didn’t happen.

I did manage to go out for a little walk anyway, in the neighborhood, taking pictures of mine and neighbor’s gardens while they were at work and wouldn’t find out. It was nice to be on asphalt instead of the mossy, stony, un-pathed parts of the wilderness where I have been these last few days. No twisting of ankles or fear of falling into water somewhere. Got some nice pictures and spent way too much time on Instagram…

What I really should have been doing is sleeping. Or maybe watching the new episode of Supernatural. I can’t so that when I am too tired though, it’s a sacred moment when I get to watch the new episode. I’ve never been able to follow the current season before. I’ve always had to buy the DVD of the past season when the new was about half way through. Can you tell I’m a big fan? I guess most of you haven’t even heard of it. There are so many TV-shows. I found it by chance and doing something that today would be considered illegal. It’s an old show, it’s the eleventh season now. I have never gotten tired of it and I don’t think I ever will. Maybe it’s the car. The 67 Impala. It might be the car. It’s so beautiful… and the sound of that engine…

Moving on.

I find myself doing many other things right now. I need to find that special song on YouTube to listen to and when I find it, it’s such a good song I have to focus on the song and can’t write. After finding seven special song and playing them a couple of times each I let the playlist continue on it’s own. But maybe something happened on Instagram that need my attention. I just passed three hundred and I am carefully watching so it won’t get below that. As if I could stop it if it did. Well, in a way you can, but not by checking in once in awhile. Instagram just as Twitter and everything else need work, a lot of it. If only it payed more than nothing…

Oh, Twitter… Be right back!!!

I had a message. A business lady asking me what I was passionate about. I never answer these messages, I just followed her back and she’s probably got some app doing it. She followed me first. I never follow first on my main Twitter. Except for a few of the big ones, like PewDiePie for some reason. Earlier I got a question from someone who liked my channel and was wondering if I was interested in the possibility of an auto play function for YouTube videos in Twitter feeds. Yes, sure. Why not? They are going to keep in touch. Do I take these things seriously? No. Like I said, there are apps and if you're making the auto play a thing you can probably program for an auto reply too. So. No, I don’t. But just so you know I have also had a long discussion with the kik bot about how kik isn't working. It was very interesting. And yes, I knew it was a bot, but sometimes you just need to went. It listened and replied very quickly, so that’s good. But in the end it started to repeat itself. Sad how these things happen. I tried to explain that it had already said that, but it didn’t help. We ended the conversation on good terms though. And yes, I still want you to believe me when I say I knew it was a bot. Please!

Still 301…

Came back from Twitter via Instagram, and there’s a great song on right now. Wish it was audion in this blog. Guess what, there is. I can post videos, but it can cause really bad lag. I think I’m testing everyone enough with my excess of words every day. And sometimes, like now, I am basically just going through the motions. My head's all over the place and I am seriously procrastinating, trying to make myself believe I have this under control, but I don’t. Today is an off day. Again. When I’m done I’ll sleep and I’ll do my best to make sure tomorrow will be better.

Looking for the new wisdom I found on Instagram I heard a new song that was awesome. I couldn’t quite hear all the lyrics so naturally I needed to find that video so I could learn it. And listen to it on repeat for a couple of times. It was a really good song.

Anyway…

Instagram wisdom, a perfect reminder for me to have as wallpaper on my tablet so I’ll see it often. “Stop wondering if you’re good enough… Know that you are and start acting like it.” I have mentioned that phenomenon in me a fairly large number of times, so maybe I should start thinking about it in another fashion. Maybe I should start acting like it.

Whoa, this is also a good song, hang on.... it’s really awesome… Sorry! We’re nearly there.

It’s a really funny though though, acting like I’m good enough. I couldn’t be a writer, we need the pain. Seriously though. There are areas where I don’t wonder, areas where I do know that I’m good enough. Or could be with some training maybe. But then there are other areas where I even refrain from trying because I will never be as good as them. Someone said I should watch YouTube videos to get ideas for my own. It’s just that if I do… then I’ll only see how good they are and I am not. And then I will quit.

In one way I am not wondering IF I’m good enough. I KNOW I’m not.

With that final plot twist I have finished procrastinating for today. I’ll sleep now and I’ll be back tomorrow. Hopefully with a better post and hopefully you’ll be here too.

Thank You!!!